Self care is not about being selfish as so many of us are taught to think when growing up. However self care is not at the cost of others either. In fact no one else is involved in this process. Well you can figure it out yourself because this is not the point to this post. Herein lies the problem, I am a big procrastinator.
There is an article that resonated with me and basically made me think as to where this flaw of mine is rooted in. If you take the time to read the article, and you know me, you will definitely see the pattern described within me.
I'll explain to those lazy readers what I mean. I always had it easy, school wise. I grew up boasting about the fact that I didn't bother to study for exams, I usually revised. I got good grades. Writing papers and researching was a walk in the park for me. So when faced with a challenge, I procrastinate until the last possible minute then almost kill myself with stress to get the unpleasant task done. Not a very fun way to do things but when faced with a deadline, that's what I do.
This applies to other things like my physical, spiritual and mental well being. So while my friends are all off going to the gym, I procrastinate. They ask and I don't even make excuses, I just say no, not today. The excuses are all in my head: It's too late/too tired/ I'm sick/ I am on my moon. Blah blah blah blah blah....
So there you go. I am my own worst enemy. I want to live a balanced life. I want to take care of myself properly. If i can commit to others, why can't I commit to myself. So here are my commitments:
- I will commit to writing in my blog once a week. So when inspired, I will write, even if I am not inspired, I will write.
- I will commit to continue my daily writing of my novel. I can do a minimum of 500 words and push myself to write at least 1500 words. I have 20,000 done so far..
- I will commit to one physical activity per day, to bring myself back into shape and invest in my health with better eating and a gym membership.
- I will commit to my spiritual side by giving myself time to mediate daily at least five minutes.
So these are my initial attempts to change how I describe myself. I am active and a strike-the-iron-while-its-hot type of person. Who is this lazy procrastinator? I don't know her... she's gone.